don't let YOUR EMOTIONS OVERCOME YOU.

ASsalamualaikumwarhmatullahiwabarkatuh. =D

my title tells it all. huhu..masa ani a bit kecewa plus antah, sedih jua lah, but not really sedih, but yes, disappointed of some 'things' around me happened. that, actually, dapat berusaha for not to make it happen. huhu.complicated i know! very very busy dis weekend! mcm-mcm ada..but alhamdulillah,its worthed..and gain mcm2 .segala puji bagi Allah yang masih membuka kan hati kami untuk menerima segala ilmu. Allahuakbar =D

okay,i will start with my talk show masa friday malam.it was membari kabak2 before atu, because i wasnt ready like AT ALL..mcm tanya2 dorang saja hadis2 apa kaitan anak and bapa and all.tanya dorang as in the sisters masa set up di icc ptg jumat. we were all busy mcm hmm susun2 kerusi,setting up apa. jadi malam atu,kena antar lah ke rtb leh sis Ay an Ai, and it happpened kul 9.30 pm, my senior antar balik, it turned nda sempat lah hadiri meeting for that night with Hj Adam. antah ah, nda tau kena dangar kah nda i was on air atu.but what made me happy, both my parents dangar :D :D hehe atu lah saja..i miss them even im infront of them, nda tau, theyre getting older, still belum dapat sumbangkan anything for them.huhu. ;( let Allah count it all. huhu.kena terus berusaha and berusaha..

That morning 21st june,mcm ramai lah orang datang, the peserta, jadinya terakhir sedikit program,sepatutnya start like 8am,but start at 8.45..jadinya huhu, iatah, but ok lah..the program was interesting andd siuk berabis pengisiannya. dapat di apply with kerja2 yg dibuat masa ani, about management. more to mengurus diri and all.i wont go in to details, but i will share if terus ada mengalir dari otak. mcm2 benda lah,new things. and kami andang duduk in groups udah.and it happened, my group ani awal2 atu we were all awkward, since yg the new ones, yg i knw one of my bestfriend, one cyber friend(but not anymore :D )dari UNISSA and one 3 other ubdians, which one of them saja kenal.lepas ikut cooking day. hehe with veterans Ka Sin,Ka Fidah,Ka Fit and KaMehrn, gembira lah..we all get along slowly and slowly alhamdulillah =D masa petang atu abis at 5, after solat and all, met the parents of 2 remajas yang kan ikut ke temburong dis 24th-26th :D jadinya, yatah tu..mcm i must show the face to my their parents, so dat dorang ada trust lah ,kan kemana kan bawa anak dorang and all..alhamdulillah,both positive.huhu :D kalau semua parents mcm camatu , kan best? hhehe. dapat negotiate, sama2 untuk kemajuan anak dorang.alhamdulillah.. lepas atu, malam itu ini, ada postmortem for the 1st day program, kami cakap lah apa yg perlu diperbaiki and all. share apa yg patut di kurangkan, ditambah, i loveee the way akh adam , beri analogi, with kisah2 sahabat, org alim and all..banyak menambah ilmu lah..and, dizah slept over at my place and sis Mar jua..we reached home at like 11pm dari pagi..was tired. and masa balik atu pun, haha, jadi mcm mengira2 the $$ ..membahagi2 to cek cukup kah nda and all.. all and all, itu ini, ahirnya tdur at 1am if not mistaken..

Then,just now,the 2nd day! it was nearly (as dini ckp) nearly to be perfect! siuk berabis lah the 2nd day..mcm banyak activities and all..happy gembira jadinya! everyone participated in the activities lah..and the pengisian was interesting as well.more to build confidence diri and potensi..communication skills! hehe chali2 lah..it made my day gembira! :D hehe learn to appreciate diri sendiri..though tadi ada scene mcm huuuuu saisnya buleh bagi tenangis plg, like antah haha bagi jauh hati plg, but well its ok..mun banarnya jua haha..its alright, take things positively.so yes! :D jangan sedih..people loves u, dats why kena BULI hahaha eventhough dapan everyonee.haiy..nda mau cerita.krg sasak and malu again.oh well! hehe. tapi banar 2nd day mcm much much happening. im sure readers yg attend pun agree lah.
Huhu, the problem that was not created, susah saja kan mingle with the person..haiy, i tend just cudnt talk to the particular. ill still get butterflies dalam stomach, whichs soo buruk! hoho.. im sure dia pun payah kan comunicate with me as well. masih terasa panahan2 atu..;( tapi, im trying my best and best to avoid all those panahans..huhu.

tadi malam, went to Muti'ah for Posmortem whichs really payah and huhu,antah lah..panjang ceritanya, but tadi hati ada terasa lah..tersinggung and a bit terasa terasing.. kadang2 , tani nda jua dapt expect org atu akan ikut bekorban as well untuk membuatkan teman dia bahagiakan? and comfortable...it happened just now..antah lah, if nda kuat hati, haiy..mcm2 lah.. maybe nda sengaja..or x terfikir benda atu akan buat org jadi sedih..maybe? tani baik sangka saja lah :) all and all,im very new in 'this'..so..ya lo~..hehe. bnyk dugaan tadi atu.. huhu even yg inda makan pun kena charge..haiyy..jadinya ani ujian Allah,melihat siapa yg paling beriman dan bersabar kan..so relax lah,kan proses tarbiyyah :D so yea.. sedih lah jua ..but yes..again, we cant expect orang disekeliling buat tani bahagia as how we wanted them to bahagia kan.. Allah knows better.

Just balik kerumah, atupun mengurus2 kan bayaran2 for the 2 days kursus, huhu maybe ada nda cukup lah..but maybe guna tabung belia..hopefully ok amin amin.. esok lagi kan nguruskan. esok another busy day,pagi ptg di pusat dakwah,ada kursus feqh toharah..but 24th ani pegi temburong..maybe i have to use boat sebab, yea, nda semua ada yg nada pasport..jadi,kesian jua kan.. yatah..im sleepy ;S huhuhu

Btw, kan share satu benda! RESULTS were OUT already!!! masa 1st day kursus ya keluar..jadinya time atu ada one scene kami mcm nda concentrate pasal results..it moved me into tears..i got B overall! :D tesis alhamdulillah dapat B jua. Ya Robb banyaknya nikmat mu ini..sungguh..huhu..mcm banar2 Surah Muhammad 7,banar2 tah i am sure what im doing now . it infact, HELPED me A LOT!!! so yes..alhamdulillah..sedih lah jua till now, nda pecaya..ada org usaha nya LEBIH more and more dibuatnya to lawakan tesisnya..huhu iatah kesian lah..haiy.. alhamdulillah!! again,nikmat ALLAH! :D

masa ani paning, but i want to set my goals!! mau jadi apa, kerja or BM or..solat ofcoruse..jadinya yatah tu..nervous sgt though...nda tau kan jadi apa..;( huhu but i knw rezki atu Allah sudah tetapkan for masing2.........=D =D

zzzzzzzzzzz really sleep , sambung nanti! insyallah, <3<3<3<3